ouh wow, its been awhile not been updating my blog. dusty bloggy! hehe. Basically, i'm very busy. Busy ape sak nad? like usual, school! duhhh. Lots of things happening around me, beside than schooling. tsk-tsk. and because of that i've abondoned alot of stuffs. hmm.
eversince the school new term started, i can feel my life isnt like the past. i mean past as in positive ways. i missed alot of things.
I miss ..
lepaking with my Darling Fina, rememberd u teach me how to skate, till i sucess? sampai aku beli skateboard murah! hahah. rememberd kite slalu gi city hall, jalan penin, to padang den to raffles dah tu wil-wil kononnye nak bakar lemak? lmao. rememberd the giggs we go.. FINA AKU MISS EVERYTHING!!! aku miss akhim, nad kecik... LOL.. evrything was just flashback to my mind!! SMKM2!! and i miss our 2007 time.
I miss..
going outing with my whole lot of friends.
the bridge leaders lepaking members
netballing as a team
chilling on weekends
damnnnn where could i have been now?
i dont miss..
my ex boyfriends and irritating ex-puppy lover. EEEE! so disgusting.
i realised everything has changed.
& i realised im not like the nad-ZERG like i used to be.
i can feel that i'm not strong and doesnt stand up like a confident woman.
i guess.. because of THEM, i fall. like a failure. why should i deserved this treatment, while i gave the full attention and heart to them. sigh. them? yes them! boys! u know what i mean.
there's no point dwelling over it. i wanna start anew.
snap-snap.
back to the room, okay today i had a stressful moment after school.
driving license today was sucked core. why?
cause i got to drive in major road, where cars, lorries and buses started to horn on me.
fuck up la. hope next time it wont happen again. sigh.
alrigth till here then.
past is past.
lets past becomes a lesson.
let now become a cehrish moments.
Together with love,
Nurnadhirah
what we could have been, 7:24 AM.
I'm alive just in body's face. Because inside me, I feel That I'm not any more in this place. I lost my spirit, I broke my old habit, Now I'm lock in this secret. As you can see and feel it...I don't have dreams, I lost the wish of a new future, I even lost the old screams, That made me felt that I was imature. I lost the new mind, I lose what I find, I'm always lost and blind, Because my life lost the big why. The why I was here. The why I fought for. The why I would breathe. The why I went out from that door. Am I alive? Am I dead? Did I lose the control of my head? Did I lose my true love in a mistake? Or am I just here waiting for someone to take Take me away from this miserable life...
I just need someone to guide me to the right thinking.
I miss my late sister badly.
& i miss my friends.
where are u nadira?
what we could have been, 1:45 AM.
