i had an extreme long day today. when for Final theory, i failed. When to bought Golf club with father. when to shop with father. i did planting at home with father. when to pay bills with father and I think spent the whole day with my Father! hehe. oh, son of Hassan isnt mad at me anymore. we decide to go back from the scratch. i miss u, u miss me. i want us to go back happily. no matter how many guys i've known currently, i am more comfortable with u. period.
ps, please trust me cause i trust you a billion more.
what we could have been, 7:08 AM.
I hurt you once, but u hurt me doubled. i want you back. i really do. i realised my mistake but did you?? please laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa reply my sms son of Hassan! ergh!
mood: complicated love.
which one should i choose?
& by letting u go, Did i do the right thing?
arghh! fuck! fuck! i hate u love!
it's killing me hardly!
sob-sob.
what we could have been, 3:53 AM.
i found you dead in the hospital bed.
So much to say, I wish I could said bye
The only time I'll talk to you is when I look into the sky
All I've got is these pictures of you
Things in my house still smell of you
All I wanna say is,
Lil' sister if you can hear me
I regret every bad thing that I said
Please forgive me if you hear me..
Never knew how much I loved you till you was dead...
what we could have been, 1:26 AM.
Memories keeps dwelling, Tears keeps falling.
11th may 09; 4:45am, God has taken your soul away
Maybe God loves you even more than us,
I regret i didnt get to see you on your last breath.
I cried and cried.. wasnt expect u to leave us.
I felt so lonely now and mum's too.
Normally u the want who always accompany mum
when im not around. Things going to be different without you.
my tears keep falling now..only god knows how i feel.
i just want you to know with or without
your presence i will always love and remember you.
May Allah place you with the pious people in heaven.
amin.
My Beloved and only one sister,
Nurhidayah Bte Suyani
19th January 1996 - 11th May 2009.
May your soul rest in peace.
amin.
what we could have been, 1:12 AM.