oowow, its been awhile not updating.
Been busy alot.
I might updating for today and may be away for the rest of other days,
maybe till i'm free, which i don't know when is it. heheh.
I've been dying, craving, dwelling for school reasons and some other stuffs.

Imma working my ass off to get what im craving for, that is 4 points for my GPA.
Which anyone in ITE ever wants and dream off. I'll try my best to make it come true.
Well maybe not try, but Must come true. hahah. My determination is so high to the limit but i'm not doing it? hmmmm. This time i will cross over mountains and seas to make my high determination to goes as plan. jyeah. Just do it! hahah.

Well other than that, I've been dying for motorcycle license (class 2b). I've been pestering my father to get an enrollment for class 2b just now. heheh. Perhaps he told me to get class 3 first (car license) than.. i can get class 2b instead. Damn.. whats the difference? Was bit disappointing, nevertheless.. he's going to pay all the fees! jyeah. So yeah imma start my class 3 enrollment after 9th march, just after my exams. Can't wait baybeh. And to mom, I'll do what I've already planted for years. I'll still go for that class 2b. Push away all your negative thinking, anyway dad give me the permission though. hmph.

What can i do to stop dwelling to the past? Infect i'm through with them. My mind cant stop processing. Processing, but doesn't turn to anything that should be processed. Easy say, maybe i still searching for the right want. But my fear is still there. More called as Phobia. U know what i mean. After you get so much of abandoned or so called bastard from lads. U get this fear, that the dream-guy-u-ever-want you'll get later might be happen again like pastime. Ouh yes I've been admiring, crushing on these lads. But, deep inside my heart there's this thing is not working..; Excitement. Its dead and gone. Well i don't know how to elaborate more. Its crazy to babble it out here. Tsk.

For now i'm just praying hard for my upcoming test and exams. Wish all the best for me. What've been planned will goes as planned alrights. I'm signing off, will update when i ready to be back active.



Together with love,
Nad♥

what we could have been, 1:27 AM.