Im just being random. Enjoy listening to France song!!
It's been two years since i last updated my bloggy. I'm back to here and write for no reason. People don't uses blog anymore. People are crazy on facebook now. Im currently at work, yeah i got a job now, working as admin in an office in lavender. Im bored actually. Anyway the guy i mentioned in the last update, he has become my boyfriend now. we have been officially together on July 2010 and till now. Hmm yes i admit i've been thru thickest and thin with him. Sometimes he likes to give me craps and makes me fucking angry till now. sometime i just wanna bang my head on the wall. sometimes i love him. sometimes he is kinda flirtatious likes to see other girls. i know when i said that to him he deadly wont admit it. harghh. this morning we have just settled down from a long fight. i dont wanna mention what it's regarding about. it's better left unsaid. i just wished things will go the other way round someday that he will start to control me. so he would know how is it feels like to be hurt so deeply. haizzz. i pray one day. yea. goodbye for now.
what we could have been, 11:25 PM.
everyday, every morning, everynight i would always think of you. I can feel it has come to our away naturally. But yet we havent compromise our trust to each other. i dont think i have problem with that though. It's you. why cant you have a lil faith in me? why cant you trust in me. if you dont trust me, why do you wanna be friend with me. if you feel alot of bad doubts about me, i think you should just leave. Well i'll be sad if you did that, i just want you to believe in me. Cause i had never played behinde you. I have never calling any other guys except you. But yet you keep telling me i did so. I am dissapointed at your words. you keep telling me that i've been calling other guys, i dont know how to deal with time as i ALWAYS late in any things & i always giving you an invalid excuses. why? why do you have to think like that towards me? why? you should be grateful, that im not a party woman, i dont club, i dont drink, i dont wear clothes that short of cloths either! and you should be thankful that i dont go around flinging with guys, flirting and scandaling. Im not that anymore. Ever since i've known you further, i have stop contacting with guys. I changed my number for the sake of you & to stop from guys contacting with me. But yet i still dont understand, you cant see all that. I wish you could feel me, understand me for how i feel. But no, infact you just want me to feel you. I tried very hard to understand and study your characteristic. Sometimes i will play cool with it. I have tried my best to be patience. but to you im like a failure.
well yeah i know im not pretty like ur ex-es or you ex fiancee. but i want you to know i got pretty heartful kind of person. but you dont know how to value it. well i got no one to talk about this in any further, i only have this place; blogger to let out all my feelings. im very wishful that you could drop by and read this. many things to let out, it havent finished just yet. cause' i know this post wont be read by you for a million years.
bye for now blogger. Goodnight world. Goonight to you.
:(
what we could have been, 7:16 AM.
I am back to blog on 2010. hehh. yea i know its been awhile. anyways not many people craze on blogging now. Tumblr has become the trend recently. so uhmm, i've got nothing much to say as some things are better left unsaid. I can say that my life is draught with boredom since the last day of school. no more school now, no more lectures, no more late to school, no more waking up at 6. Its an officially no-more! im dead bored at home where as some of my mates have gone to poly and some are working. As for me i've just quitted from my part time job. i'm not interested though. i am looking forward to pass my tp. but i have sense of failure. i can be confident to do it well, but i cant have the confident to pass. i shall put this to God and myself. After doing tp i will find a job i guess. To wait for private dip, i shall say i can wait for ages. The intake didnt met the following month that i've set to study. so, i shall consider it again. i will find a full time job. soon. thats it.
ps; i respect for who you are & for how you are.
i don't wanna blew this chance away. <3
what we could have been, 1:52 AM.
Friday, December 25, 2009
BLOGGY! imysm! sorry for not updating, i've been through alot of things and got no time to update. So it's been awhile now, lets talk and type. haha. Well today i've got a wedding function to go. It's My cousin's wedding. Happy Newly wed Kak Jun. Hope your marriage will be blessed and last long. amin. Okay i got to go now. See ya around Bloggy.
Together with love,
Nadhirah.
what we could have been, 5:49 PM.
I'll be away from blogging.
seriously, i'm hooked to games whenever i on my com now.
haha.
& yea tomorrow is 1st Ramadhan.
I am so looking forward into that month.
hehe.
To all muslims LETS FAST.
May Allah blessed you.
amin.
nadee.
what we could have been, 8:16 AM.
Today's language: Malay&English. haha. maut.
Okay, hari ni is so lethargic day for me. Cuaca very panas and i think i nak dekat sakit. Body mcm seram sejuk gitu. I end school around 2pm tadi. FPE practical was cancelled. Otw back home mcm drag giler. Sigh. Balik rumah macam takde life gitu. Mandi then on computer surf FACEBOOK! haha. Apelagi, mcm biase arh babe, go facebook main game!!
Hahahaha! u know, till my mom called me "nanti kau jadi TONGONG baru tau, makan je tu computer". LOL. i diam je, continue with my facebook. Hmmm. Alamak, my body doesnt feel good now. i rase because lack of rest. 8-10august, i was out from home. berambu sampai balek pagi je.
On 8th, i had a short date with this mamat age 17 tahun. LOL. Date skejap je, and then katenye he's going "HOLIDAY" and said must be back home before 8pm. Pale pantat lu. damn boy, i know u were lying from the start. Tu pasal gua malas nak layan. Ade hati nak tipu with me. i know people's who's lying or not. Air muka lu, i boleh baca la. Nasib baik i understanding tau, i tak protest muka lu. I know you are still young. maseh adek-adek nak cari pompuan Jambu air batu. haha. kimak. Nevertheless im not sad either, macam biasa lepas tu i cari members for gaying la. senang cerita.
on the 9th, i had tahlil moyang i. mcm nak rak i tolong kat dapur. this coming weekend my arwah adik punye 100th tahlil. hmm. my energy nak kene reload la ni..
on 10th, i jumpe my bekas TTM! alahaii.. i tengok muka dia.. cair betol!! haha siak je aku ni. he drove all the way frm bukit panjang to my house. so yah.. pass him the thing, and.. bla-bla-bla. hehe. and then when to meet Darling Ayu:)
Today's school mcm nothing gitu. hmm. hope tmrw wont happen like today. Tak happening la sei. haha. ouh yea Darling Fina, dont foregt on thurs! nak datingggggggg!! hehe. k la see ya bloggy.
Oklah i nak continue main game in facebook. ciaoooo.
Pet Society
Roller Coaster Kingdom
Farmville
ps, nak clubbing boleh?
Together with love,
nadee PUNTO! hehe.
what we could have been, 12:38 AM.
ouh wow, its been awhile not been updating my blog. dusty bloggy! hehe. Basically, i'm very busy. Busy ape sak nad? like usual, school! duhhh. Lots of things happening around me, beside than schooling. tsk-tsk. and because of that i've abondoned alot of stuffs. hmm.
eversince the school new term started, i can feel my life isnt like the past. i mean past as in positive ways. i missed alot of things.
I miss ..
lepaking with my Darling Fina, rememberd u teach me how to skate, till i sucess? sampai aku beli skateboard murah! hahah. rememberd kite slalu gi city hall, jalan penin, to padang den to raffles dah tu wil-wil kononnye nak bakar lemak? lmao. rememberd the giggs we go.. FINA AKU MISS EVERYTHING!!! aku miss akhim, nad kecik... LOL.. evrything was just flashback to my mind!! SMKM2!! and i miss our 2007 time.
I miss..
going outing with my whole lot of friends.
the bridge leaders lepaking members
netballing as a team
chilling on weekends
damnnnn where could i have been now?
i dont miss..
my ex boyfriends and irritating ex-puppy lover. EEEE! so disgusting.
i realised everything has changed.
& i realised im not like the nad-ZERG like i used to be.
i can feel that i'm not strong and doesnt stand up like a confident woman.
i guess.. because of THEM, i fall. like a failure. why should i deserved this treatment, while i gave the full attention and heart to them. sigh. them? yes them! boys! u know what i mean.
there's no point dwelling over it. i wanna start anew.
snap-snap.
back to the room, okay today i had a stressful moment after school.
driving license today was sucked core. why?
cause i got to drive in major road, where cars, lorries and buses started to horn on me.
fuck up la. hope next time it wont happen again. sigh.
alrigth till here then.
past is past.
lets past becomes a lesson.
let now become a cehrish moments.
Together with love,
Nurnadhirah
what we could have been, 7:24 AM.
