It's been two years since i last updated my bloggy. I'm back to here and write for no reason. People don't uses blog anymore. People are crazy on facebook now. Im currently at work, yeah i got a job now, working as admin in an office in lavender. Im bored actually. Anyway the guy i mentioned in the last update, he has become my boyfriend now. we have been officially together on July 2010 and till now. Hmm yes i admit i've been thru thickest and thin with him. Sometimes he likes to give me craps and makes me fucking angry till now. sometime i just wanna bang my head on the wall. sometimes i love him. sometimes he is kinda flirtatious likes to see other girls. i know when i said that to him he deadly wont admit it. harghh. this morning we have just settled down from a long fight. i dont wanna mention what it's regarding about. it's better left unsaid. i just wished things will go the other way round someday that he will start to control me. so he would know how is it feels like to be hurt so deeply. haizzz. i pray one day. yea. goodbye for now.

everyday, every morning, everynight i would always think of you. I can feel it has come to our away naturally. But yet we havent compromise our trust to each other. i dont think i have problem with that though. It's you. why cant you have a lil faith in me? why cant you trust in me. if you dont trust me, why do you wanna be friend with me. if you feel alot of bad doubts about me, i think you should just leave. Well i'll be sad if you did that, i just want you to believe in me. Cause i had never played behinde you. I have never calling any other guys except you. But yet you keep telling me i did so. I am dissapointed at your words. you keep telling me that i've been calling other guys, i dont know how to deal with time as i ALWAYS late in any things & i always giving you an invalid excuses. why? why do you have to think like that towards me? why? you should be grateful, that im not a party woman, i dont club, i dont drink, i dont wear clothes that short of cloths either! and you should be thankful that i dont go around flinging with guys, flirting and scandaling. Im not that anymore. Ever since i've known you further, i have stop contacting with guys. I changed my number for the sake of you & to stop from guys contacting with me. But yet i still dont understand, you cant see all that. I wish you could feel me, understand me for how i feel. But no, infact you just want me to feel you. I tried very hard to understand and study your characteristic. Sometimes i will play cool with it. I have tried my best to be patience. but to you im like a failure.

well yeah i know im not pretty like ur ex-es or you ex fiancee. but i want you to know i got pretty heartful kind of person. but you dont know how to value it. well i got no one to talk about this in any further, i only have this place; blogger to let out all my feelings. im very wishful that you could drop by and read this. many things to let out, it havent finished just yet. cause' i know this post wont be read by you for a million years.

bye for now blogger. Goodnight world. Goonight to you.






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I am back to blog on 2010. hehh. yea i know its been awhile. anyways not many people craze on blogging now. Tumblr has become the trend recently. so uhmm, i've got nothing much to say as some things are better left unsaid. I can say that my life is draught with boredom since the last day of school. no more school now, no more lectures, no more late to school, no more waking up at 6. Its an officially no-more! im dead bored at home where as some of my mates have gone to poly and some are working. As for me i've just quitted from my part time job. i'm not interested though. i am looking forward to pass my tp. but i have sense of failure. i can be confident to do it well, but i cant have the confident to pass. i shall put this to God and myself. After doing tp i will find a job i guess. To wait for private dip, i shall say i can wait for ages. The intake didnt met the following month that i've set to study. so, i shall consider it again. i will find a full time job. soon. thats it.







ps; i respect for who you are & for how you are.


i don't wanna blew this chance away. <3

BLOGGY! imysm! sorry for not updating, i've been through alot of things and got no time to update. So it's been awhile now, lets talk and type. haha. Well today i've got a wedding function to go. It's My cousin's wedding. Happy Newly wed Kak Jun. Hope your marriage will be blessed and last long. amin. Okay i got to go now. See ya around Bloggy.


Together with love,
Nadhirah.